nvmmm hate is over! -__________________-

now still packing cause in a few hours im leaving to go to Austin with my sister!!!!!!

yay!!!!

I wanna strangle you right now! All I’ve been doing is just guide u, help u, fucking listen to u and all u do is mess it up!! AHHHHHHHH really???? Man get your priorities straight! I ain’t gonna do shit for u!!! ur the one who wants it fucksing work for it!!!

not everything is gonna go dandy landy and everything is gonna be given to u!! ahhh!!!!!!!!!

I’m here on my pain, trying to be strong for my self, trying not to bring down happy oldoo life! Listening to the torture n u are barely there for me for the past few months!!!

YOU FUCKING DENIED AND LEFT ME!!!!!!!!

UGH!!!! thanks for not being there for me! I realized a loong time ago that I can barely depend on you!

I hate you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!

I am so bored that im doing all my reviews and homeworks so early…. like I started on all of them… but I can’t finish them because there’s some that I’m still waiting on my professor lecture and documents. 

sigh…..

I think some things are better ended………so we would stop hurting each other. Sometimes, maybe its for the best right now. Its not that I want to give up, I love you but I can’t always give way for you. I  want to feel that I am important that whatever happens, you will be there for me, as for me too. I’ll always be there for you, support you but if it comes to a point like this where one of us stop caring…….then maybe, I should stop trying.

Maybe we need to give each other space, maybe its for the best we parted ways. Sometimes, I don’t know if continuing this relationship is right because I feel I’m the only one trying. I feel I’m the only one who feels this. I dont feel like I should be saving this relationship anymore cause you stop caring about me.

Don’t you think?

If you really want me to deal with this by myself… then… why are we still together?

I don’t need your lame ass sorry! I want your support and care and telling me to stop complaining makes everything worst!!! Ugh!!!!

Why???? Why r u Fucking doing this to me?? You said things are gonna go fine but you are fucking ruining everything!!!!! You are making everything worst to me!!! You are making this relationship unbearable to me!! You are making this distance more fucking complicated!!!!

Ughhhh I’m trying and understanding but ughhh I’m about to fucking give up!!!!